Day 132: As I may have related before, I believe that my captors may be deploying a deep psy ops campaign against me. They insist on leaving me in the dark for hours at time; I must admit that my strength occasionally fails, and I fall asleep. Upon waking however, I find myself terrified and cry out at the dark. My captors then administer a wondrous nectar to me. I cannot lie; I am addicted to this foodstuff. It must be laced with psychotropic substances as I immediately calm down as I imbibe and early on I found myself often falling back to sleep while I drank it. More data is required before I make any conclusions as to the goal of this campaign. I will report again soon.